With the holiday season underway, I’ve been constantly reminded of all that I have been blessed with. An amazing family, the best friends I could ever ask for, a roof over my head, clothes, a kitchen stocked with food, a job, a chance at an education (although sometimes I’m not all that fond of it). I am so blessed. We all are. And sometimes, we take all of it for granted.
Be thankful this holiday season. Tell the people you love that you love them. Let them know that, although it may not always seem like it, they hold a special place in your heart.
Spend time talking to the people you love, take time out of the busy-ness of your schedule. Ask your dad how she is doing. Play a board game with your little brother. Go out to coffee with the friends you haven’t hung out with in a while. Bake cookies with your mom. Be nice to crabby checkout people at the store. Really though, smile at them, wish them a good day. You have the power to turn a bad day around.
Don’t forget how blessed you are to live the life that you live. To be the person you are. Be thankful!
Yesterday at work, a familiar song came on. A song that I have sung along with many a time. I hadn’t heard it in a while, and I’m not sure why, but hearing it really got to me.
Taylor Swift’s Fifteen. I know that there are a lot of people out there that don’t particularly like T-Swift. She may not be everyone’s cup of tea, but it’s hard to deny how relatable some of her songs are. On so many different levels. And I think this is one of them.
Hearing this song brought me back to my freshman year of high school. Being so young and not knowing what to expect with the next four years. Not realizing how those years would fly by faster than I could ever imagine. Feeling so small in such a big school with so many people I’ve never met. Mostly keeping to myself for the duration of high school. Not knowing how I fit into such a big place.
I didn’t realize how much more there was to life than the time that is spent in high school. That there is a whole world out here to be explored. But with that world comes so much responsibility. So much to do. So much to remember. I wish I could go back and tell myself to cherish those four years more than I did. I went blindly through high school and didn’t take advantage of the time that I had. I didn’t go to any of the games. I didn’t do the things that, looking back now, I wish I could go back and do.
Now I’m here. In the real world. A new person. A much, much happier person than I was. And I wish I could have been this happier person through high school. So I could experience what I missed.
But if there’s something that I’ve learned since graduating, it’s that everything happens for a reason. Despite being who I was in high school. Sad. Lonely. Kept to myself. I learned a lot through those four years. And I will keep those things with me for the rest of my life. I can share what I experienced in high school with those who are currently there, feeling the way that I felt. Try to help them break out of their shells. And I can try my hardest to help them to make the most of those years like I wish that I did.
If I wasn’t so afraid, I wouldn’t spend each day thinking about all of the terrible things that go on in this world. I wouldn’t spend every single day scared and letting fear hold me back from just being happy and living my life. I know that I need to let God take control. Well. He already has control, always has. But I need to let myself rest in knowing that fact. I need to find peace in knowing that God has me in the palm of His hand.
“Trust in the Lord with all of your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding.” Proverbs 3:5
This verse is one that I have been holding very close lately. There are so many things in this world that we don’t understand. That we are unable to understand. It’s frustrating. It’s scary. It’s hard to live in a world that you don’t understand. A world that you don’t necessarily trust. There are so many terrible things that happen. So many terrible people. So many things to be scared of. To be paranoid about.
Fear has held me back so much lately. It’s probably the most frustrating thing that I’ve dealt with in a while. I need to trust God with my whole heart. Not focus on what I know or what I think I know, but have faith in Him and that He knows what He’s doing.