Twenty Tomorrow

So I recently heard this song called Twenty Tomorrow by Ben Rector and I thought it would be a good song to cover since I will in fact be twenty tomorrow. (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5bh8hATqrq4&feature=youtu.be)  I rewrote some of the lyrics to make it reflect more of me and how I’m feeling at this point in my life.  I recorded the song and put together a video of some pictures from throughout the years.  It was so great to look back at memories from the past two decades.

Looking back at the people I’ve had in my life throughout the past 20 years has proved to me the fact that the people we have in our lives help make us who we are.  I would not be the person I am today if it weren’t for all of the people that I’ve met along the way.  I am so incredibly thankful for every single person that I have had the privilege of knowing thus far.  Thank you for helping me find myself.

I am so blessed to have an amazing family.  I’m so happy that God placed me in a family with such an incredible group of people.  I know that we will all forever be close and love each other no matter what happens.  I have so many memories with these people and each and every one of them has taught me so much about life and about myself.  I don’t know where I would be without such a strong support system.  I know I wouldn’t even be close to be where I am today without them.

While I was looking through pictures, there were so many of me and my brothers.  Goodness, I love those three so much.  They are my best friends.  I honestly don’t know what I would do without them.  Though I always used to wish that at least one of them was a girl so that I could have a sister, and a lot of the memories we have involve fighting and arguing, and they always leave toothpaste in the sink, and sometimes it’s hard to love them, I cherish them so much.  I want the best for them.  I know that they will all grow up to be amazing men and I am so insanely proud of them.

I have some of the best friends I could ever ask for.  I feel so grateful to have such people in my life who love me for who I am.  People who know me and my struggles and are always there for me.  They’ve helped me break out of the box that I kept myself contained in for so long.  I am constantly inspired by each one of them.  They are such incredible men and women of God and I look up to them so much.  True friends are hard to find, but I truly believe I have found some of the truest friends ever.

I posted my first YouTube video when I was in eighth grade.  I never imagined that it would become what it has.  I honestly don’t know how it happened.  I never thought that people would listen to and buy my music.  I never even really thought that I would be comfortable singing in front of people.  It’s crazy to think of where I started and where I am now.  It still blows my mind to think that people all around the world watch my videos and have my music on their iPods.  To every fan; thank you.  Those two words don’t seem like enough, but thank you so much for supporting me and encouraging me these past six years.  Thank you for making this what it has come to be and helping me make my dreams come true.  I am so incredibly thankful for each and every one of you.

I have learned see the world around me.  This ever changing, sometimes scary world.  To slow down and really notice the little things.  The things that this fast-paced lifestyle has blurred out of our vision.  This is such a beautiful place and I have begun to look at it as that.  To take in all of the things that happen around me every day.  To look at the way that we interact with each other.  To love people–even those who are hard to love.  To try to do what I can to make this world a better place.  I’ve really taken notice to how short life is and make my best effort to make the most of every day.

If there’s one thing I never thought I would be–never in a million years–it would be a leader.  I never saw myself as someone who people looked up to.  I was never a very confident person.  I was always content standing in the background.  But through the past couple years, I have begun to see leadership qualities in myself that I never thought I had.  I am now a worship leader and a small group leader to a group of middle schoolers whos’ lives I am so happy to be able to be a part of.  From those experiences, I have learned so much about myself and about leading others.  It has helped me grow in who I am and in my relationship with God.  We learn new things about ourselves all the time.  There are things now that you never think you’ll be able to do or be.  Don’t count those things out.  One day, it just might happen.

I honestly can’t believe that I’ve been alive for twenty years.  I still feel so much like a kid.  Like I don’t know nearly as much as I thought I would at this point I my life.  I don’t feel like a “grown up”.  I don’t feel like I’m qualified to be an “adult”.  And I’m not sure I ever will.  And I think that’s kind of the beauty of it.  Time goes on and we get older whether we feel like we’re ready or not.  We’re thrown into the pool and expected to keep our head above water.  And the amazing thing is, we do.  We might not be ready when we’re thrown in, but we learn what we need to along the way and pretty soon, we’re swimming.

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That’s The Beauty of It

That’s the beauty of it.

Of life, of course…

It goes by.

Not giving a care if we’re ready or not.

It drags us with it.

Despite the fact that we want to stay there in the moment.

It keeps going.

Even when we’re not sure we’re strong enough to move on.

It doesn’t give us a choice.

It messes with our heads.

But through all these things…

It makes us stronger even through the obstacles it at throws us.

It makes us the people we are today and the people we will be years from now.

Everyday, no matter how hard it may be, makes us stronger, whether we realize it or not.

…And somehow, no matter how bad things may get, we always seem to make it through.