Speaking My Mind

I wouldn’t say that I forgive you if I didn’t

I wouldn’t say that I’ve forgotten if I still remember

What you did to me

If the best revenge is living well that’s what I’m doing

I’ve learned to speak my mind whenever it’s needed

Whenever it’s needed

 

Woah Woah Woah Woah

 

Nobody’s perfect this I understand completely

But you didn’t have to go and tear me down like you did

Don’t get me wrong I’ve forgiven you already

But this has been inside so long it needs to get out

Before it drives me insane

 

And I, I’m over it

And this is the last step

Get it off my chest

And I, I’m over it

And this is the last step

Speaking my mind

 

Woah Woah Woah Woah

 

Now who’s to say I shouldn’t speak my mind cause it’s been so long

It’s something that I was never able to do around you

Well things are different now

And time can soothe the pain a little more than I can myself

It’s hard to forget, I’m just being honest like you never were

 

And I, I’m over it

And this is the last step

Get it off my chest

And I, I’m over it

And this is the last step

Speaking my mind

 

Woah Woah Woah Woah

 

And I cut the strings

That held me back from everything

From everything

There’s nothing more to see

Cause I burned the bridge and yeah I cut those strings

From you to me

 

And I, I’m over it

And this is the last step

Get it off my chest

And I, I’m over it

And this is the last step

Speaking my mind

 

Woah Woah Woah Woah

Woah Woah Woah Woah

 

Link to song:

https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/finding-myself/id598460623

Copyright 2012

We All Have A Story

It’s been a rollercoaster ride

But now everything’s all right

Everything’s all right

I never thought that I would find

So many things about this life

That make it worth living

 

When I was at my lowest point

I didn’t know which way to turn

You picked me up

Turned me around

And showed me how

To live this life in such a way

That much can come from what I say

And what I do

It’s all from You

It’s all from You

 

I have a story to tell

A story of a time in which I fell

Farther than I ever have

Farther than I ever knew

When I was feeling all alone

Feeling like I was standing on my own

You showed me that wasn’t true

God, You helped me through

 

Yeah I really thought it was the end

But now it’s bright enough to see

It was just the beginning

The beginning of a life that now I see

Was truly meant to be

A life that wasn’t weak

 

And now I’m here to let you know

That when you think you’re on your own

You’re not alone

You’re not alone

You’re not alone

And in this story of you life

You can help someone with their fight

To overcome

To overcome

Like you have done

 

We all have a story to tell

A story of a time in which we fell

Farther than we ever have

Farther than we ever knew

When we were feeling all alone

Feeling like we were standing on our own

You showed us that wasn’t true

God, You helped us through

 

And despite my growing fears

When it feels like You’re not near

You’re always there

And my story’s not over

It’s being written still

By the greatest Author of all time

 

I have a story to tell

A story of a time in which I fell

Farther than I ever have

Farther than I ever knew

And when I’m feeling all alone

When I feel like I’m standing on my own

You show me that’s not true

God, You help me though

God, You help me through

 

Link to song:

https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/finding-myself/id598460623

Copyright 2012

Finding Myself

Who am I today

It seems to change all the time

One minute I will be me

Only to change into who the world wants me to be

 

Cause how can I live up to the expectations of this place

And when will I speak up

And say that I’m not sure of where I’m heading

To all of you who have told me that I’ll make it one day

Sometimes I’m not so sure

Sometimes I run away from it

Sometimes I lose myself

I’m a stranger to me

 

Why’s it gotta be that the hardest thing for me

Is the fact that life’s so hard to read

The uncertainty

It makes me crazy

To the point where I can’t sleep

 

Cause how can I live up to the expectations of this place

And when will I speak up

And say that I’m not sure of where I’m heading

To all of you who have told me that I’ll make it one day

Sometimes I’m not so sure

Sometimes I run away from it

Sometimes I lose myself

I’m a stranger to me

 

And while I find myself in this life

Just bear with me as I try

To find where I fit in

In this sea of different places

There’s so many choices to make

How can I make the right one

With all these thoughts running through my head

Cause how can I live up to the expectations of this place

And the people I’m afraid I will let down

And when will I speak up and say that I’m not sure of where I’m heading

I can’t pick my feet up off the ground

And to all of you who have told me that I’ll make it one day

You’ve been with me since the beginning

But sometimes I’m not so sure

Sometimes I run away from it

But even through all the doubt

I’m gonna find myself

 

Link to song:

https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/finding-myself/id598460623

Copyright 2012

All About You

You are there even when I can’t feel you at all

You are there when I feel like I am gonna fall

You are there when I don’t know who I’m gonna be

You are there You help me see through my uncertainties

 

And I don’t know what’s gonna come tomorrow

And all I know is here and now I’m with you

 

Through trouble and pain

I will proclaim

That You are God

And You are here

Through triumph and truth

It’s all about You

 

You are there when they tell me that I’m always wrong

I’m never right I don’t belong

You are there even when I can’t seem to believe

That You are with me You are with me

 

Through trouble and pain

I will proclaim

That You are God

And You are here

Through triumph and truth

It’s all about You

 

Through trouble and pain

I will proclaim

That You are God

And You are here

Through triumph and truth

It’s all about You

 

And I don’t know what’s gonna come tomorrow

And all I know is here and now I’m with you

 

Through trouble and pain

I will proclaim

That You are God

And You are here

Through triumph and truth

It’s all about You

 

Link to song:

https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/finding-myself/id598460623

Copyright 2012

Missing What Never Was

I don’t mean to be so distant

I don’t mean to ruin the life of the party

But when I see you there

I can’t help but close my eyes

And imagine what we could be

If it was you and me

But then I come back to reality

To be honest, I don’t like what I see

 

You’re hand in hand and walking by

Like there’s no care in the world

If only you could see that I’ve been losing my mind over you

 

I’m not the best at expressing how I feel

But now I’m thinking that maybe that’s a good thing

I’ll save myself the embarrassment of looking like a fool

And chasing after you

I never thought someone would be able to steal

A part of my heart without even trying

But now I see that it’s not even real

I’m missing what never was

 

Our eyes meet from across the room

And I smile awkwardly cause I know

That you have no idea how I feel

We’ve been friends for a while now

You should be able to smile now without

Taking my breath away

 

You don’t see me the way I see you

It’s obvious now

It’s clear that you can’t see that I’ve been losing my mind over you

 

I’m not the best at expressing how I feel

But now I’m thinking that maybe that’s a good thing

I’ll save myself the embarrassment of looking like a fool

And chasing after you

I never thought someone would be able to steal

A part of my heart without even trying

But now I see that it’s not even real

I’m missing what never was

I’m missing what never was

 

You and me will never be together

It’s you and her now

And I have to be okay with it

So I’ll fake a smile and wish you well

I wish you well

 

I’m not the best at expressing how I feel

But now I’m thinking that maybe that’s a good thing

I’ll save myself the embarrassment of looking like a fool

And chasing after you

I never thought someone would be able to steal

A part of my heart without even trying

But now I see that it’s not even real

I’m missing what never was

 

Link to song:

https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/finding-myself/id598460623

Copyright 2012

We’re Only Human

Why do the best things

Come to an abrupt end

When you need it the most

You close your eyes

You turn away for a split second

And it all blows up in your face

 

It’s all falling apart

It will never be the same

 

I feel so sick

Like someone’s punched me in the gut

Inflicting so much pain

Having faith that it will all work out for the best

Doesn’t take away every single ounce of pain

 

It’s all falling, tearing us apart

It will never be the same

 

Searching to find a way that

God could be moving in this mess

In this mess that we’ve found ourselves buried in

Because we’re only human

We’re only human

Just keep the faith

Don’t lose your faith in Him

Don’t lose your faith in Him

Because this is bigger than we are

Just put it in His hands

Let Him take control

And show us what we cannot see right now

Let him take control

And show us what we cannot see right now

 

Cause it’s all falling

Tearing us apart

 

Link to song:

https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/finding-myself/id598460623

Copyright 2012

You and Me

It’s not like anything was missing

But not everything was there

I thought that life was made just for me

But there were moments I could share

Happiness and inspiration came less often to my door

I couldn’t help but think about it

Was there more I could live for

 

You’ve always been the one I hoped for

The one I thought I’d never see

And even though it took a while

Forever you are here with me

And if you were lost or fallen

I don’t know what I would do

Cause everything I’ve ever wanted is found here and now with you

 

It’s not everyday you wake up

And meet the man you’re made to love

Felt like getting struck by lightning

You were sent from God above

I’m never gonna let you go now

No we’ll never be apart

Between our quirky imperfections

We’re a perfect work of art

 

You’ve always been the one I hoped for

The one I thought I’d never see

And even though it took a while

Forever you are here with me

And if you were lost or fallen

I don’t know what I would do

Cause everything I’ve ever wanted is found here and now with you

 

It’s here with you

I never thought that it could happen

I never thought dreams could come true

But when you are standing with me

There is nothing we can’t do

Now the world is laid before us

Endless possibilities

Even though it won’t be perfect

All I need is you and me

 

It’s not like anything was missing

But not everything was there

I know that life was made just for us

And these are moments we will share

 

Link to song:

https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/finding-myself/id598460623

Copyright 2012

Fifteen

Yesterday at work, a familiar song came on. A song that I have sung along with many a time. I hadn’t heard it in a while, and I’m not sure why, but hearing it really got to me.

Taylor Swift’s Fifteen. I know that there are a lot of people out there that don’t particularly like T-Swift. She may not be everyone’s cup of tea, but it’s hard to deny how relatable some of her songs are. On so many different levels. And I think this is one of them.

Hearing this song brought me back to my freshman year of high school. Being so young and not knowing what to expect with the next four years. Not realizing how those years would fly by faster than I could ever imagine. Feeling so small in such a big school with so many people I’ve never met. Mostly keeping to myself for the duration of high school. Not knowing how I fit into such a big place.

I didn’t realize how much more there was to life than the time that is spent in high school. That there is a whole world out here to be explored. But with that world comes so much responsibility. So much to do. So much to remember. I wish I could go back and tell myself to cherish those four years more than I did. I went blindly through high school and didn’t take advantage of the time that I had. I didn’t go to any of the games. I didn’t do the things that, looking back now, I wish I could go back and do.

Now I’m here. In the real world. A new person. A much, much happier person than I was. And I wish I could have been this happier person through high school. So I could experience what I missed.

But if there’s something that I’ve learned since graduating, it’s that everything happens for a reason. Despite being who I was in high school. Sad. Lonely. Kept to myself. I learned a lot through those four years. And I will keep those things with me for the rest of my life. I can share what I experienced in high school with those who are currently there, feeling the way that I felt. Try to help them break out of their shells. And I can try my hardest to help them to make the most of those years like I wish that I did.

Scream

The knife in my back,

The knife from your hands,

Makes me feel like I did something wrong,

But what did I do,

Cause you know you hurt me too,

This is not all my fault,

And I need to show you,

 

That I am not the way that I used to be,

And I thought that was something that you could see,

 

And I wanna scream,

It makes me wanna scream,

 

I think you know I miss you,

And despite what’s been said,

All I wanna do is talk to you,

Say what did I do,

Cause you know you hurt me too,

This is not all my fault,

And I need to show you that,

 

I am not the way that I used to be,

And I thought that was something that you could see,

 

And I wanna scream,

It makes me wanna scream,

 

The knife in my back,

The knife from your hands,

Makes me feel like I did something wrong.

 

Link to song:

http://itunes.apple.com/us/album/freedom-ep/id461765119

Copyright 2011

Meant For More

Don’t be afraid of who you are,

Take off the mask that you’ve been hiding behind,

Let the world see your pretty face,

You’ve got nothing to be ashamed of,

 

Don’t be afraid to shed some tears,

Let your feelings show you know that’s all you’ve ever wanted

But you’ve been hurt throughout the years,

So you keep everything locked up inside,

And no one has the key,

 

Don’t forget,

You’re beautiful,

Don’t forget,

You’re wonderful,

Don’t forget,

Your past doesn’t make up who you are,

And you were meant for more,

 

Don’t let your confidence be weak,

Cause we’ve all done some things that we’re not proud of,

And when you feel you’ve taken all you can take,

Just keep on going don’t give up and you can make it,

Nobody said it’d be easy,

 

Don’t forget,

You’re beautiful,

Don’t forget,

You’re wonderful,

Don’t forget,

Your past doesn’t make up who you are,

And you were meant for more,

 

We’ve been hurt and we have fallen,

We’ve been bruised and brokenhearted,

Torn apart and now we’re calling for help,

He has heard our cries,

He is coming now,

He will help us, He will help us,

And He’s saying,

 

Don’t forget,

You’re beautiful,

Don’t forget,

You’re wonderful,

Don’t forget,

Your past doesn’t make up who you are,

And you were meant for more,

There’s so much more in store,

You were meant for more.

 

Link to song:

http://itunes.apple.com/us/album/freedom-ep/id461765119

Copyright 2011